I’m forcing myself to blog about this because it’s…well…it’s really, really scary for me. I am going home tonight and CUTTING UP MY CREDIT CARDS. ALL of them. Here’s the kicker: I know that I can do this, but I have this sick attachment to my plastic. I remember when I got each card…and what if I need them?! I mean, I know it’s part of the plan, but it still stinks.
I think that I’m more angry at my severe dependence on credit cards than the fact that I am going to cut them up. I think that the actual act will be difficult, but VERY freeing. AND it means that I cannot just charge things anymore. THAT is scary. But I know that I’ll get through this, and my money will be more valuable because of that. Just writing this blog has me a little bit freaked out…but it’s all part of the healing process. If I have to spend CASH, it will be harder, and I’ll think about it THAT MUCH MORE. Looking back, I cannot believe how addicted I have become to my plastic. It’s truly terrifying…I think that Mr. Ramsey may actually be amputating a limb! That is how attached I have become to having that “security”…. Which really isn’t security, when you really think about it. I am SO very tired of owing people money. I want to SAVE!!!
So…*sigh* in a few hours, I will be credit card-less. That’s a scary thought for me!! BUT I think that it’s a necessary thing. I KNOW that it is a very necessary part of my financial healing…. Like Dave says: you can’t dig your way out of a hole by going through the bottom. So I’m making the choice to change, and build steps into that hole to climb out. And once I’m out, I’m FILLING THE HOLE IN!!
*gulp*
Here goes nothin’!
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YAY!!!!! OMG, you are a total super star. It was SO hard for me to do it, but it was a major step in stopping the bleeding. Cut them up, stick them in a jar and display them on a shelf. Feel proud that you took this step, even if it is hard to do.
(((hugs)))
Pasectimies rule! woot!