I woke up this morning and shuffled into my bathroom…right to where my scale USED to be. It took me a moment to realize that I had made a decision to move toward TOTAL HEALTH…and that meant giving up my vices: credit cards, non-vegetarian fare, THE SCALE…. 
I’m the first to admit that I’m a little addicted to the scale. It helps to keep me on track. At least, that’s what I have told myself for the past ump-teen years. So now, to be without it is VERY SCARY for me. How do I know if I”m on the right track? What if I GAIN?! What if I don’t lose? I’m still using my handy-dandy diet and exercise journal (which I love). But what if it’s NOT ENOUGH? This decision is truly yanking the safety blanket away from me. I cannot begin to express the terrified feeling that came over me when I realized that the scale was *gulp* in the study. Now, there was no one home to tell me not to, but I have to be strong. So I resisted the HUGE urge to go in and just peek…and this is only day 2!! I am giving up the scale for a week to see how I feel…I’m aiming for a whole month unless I have a total meltdown (let’s hope not). I’ve also noticed that since I put the scale away, my desire to exercise has decreased. I no longer feel compelled to slave away for HOURS a day. I would rather run 3x a week, and do my barre workouts. I also enjoy my kbell, so I’ll probably be adding that back in next week. I was shocked to see that my desire to exercise was directly related to…THE SCALE! What’s wrong with me?! I enjoy exercise, but when my alarm went of at 5am, I did NOT want to venture down to the gym for a jog. So instead, I hit snooze until 6 and did my Bar Method workout. It felt great. I feel a little twinge of guilt for not running, but I am planning a long run this weekend (4+ miles), so maybe my body needed time to rest….at least, that’s what I’m going to tell myself. And the struggle continues….
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I am so proud of you!! I know it is hard…but you will find that your motivations will change and you will survive this.