Brea Getting Fit » College Life http://breagettingfit.com Adventures in Fitness Thu, 08 Jul 2010 23:47:23 +0000 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.2 en hourly 1 Broken parts http://breagettingfit.com/2009/06/04/broken-parts/ http://breagettingfit.com/2009/06/04/broken-parts/#comments Thu, 04 Jun 2009 17:28:04 +0000 breefawn http://breagettingfit.com/?p=629 I’ve had a rough week, and I am hoping and praying that it gets better. My house is a total wreck, my mother in law is coming to visit on SUNDAY, I have a 10K that I don’t feel ready for, AND I have to get back on birth control. Did I mention that I also have to write 3 papers before Sunday?! I thumbnailcaklgl5cknow that I’m usually upbeat and motivated, but I’m just not feeling it. I haven’t worked out since Tuesday, and I probably could have this morning, but I woke up at 5 and thought “what’s the point?” So I reset the alarm and went back to sleep. I realize that I’m probably depressed, since getting off birth control was a HUGE deal to me, and I feel totally and completely helpless right now. Hubs and I talked about the BC issue last night (sorry, but I’m a little bit obsessed right now) and he said that he wanted me to get back on it since he didn’t get the job he applied for. Okay, fine. Now we’re pushing the date back AGAIN. He wants to be sure that we have good insurance. Okay, I get that. I tried to tell him that there will never be a “perfect” time to have children. Other stuff always gets in the way. You’ll never have enough money, lose enought weight, have enough patience, be educated enough…it just doesn’t happen that way. When we got married he promised me that we’d be trying to have kids by the time I turn 30. That’s 2 years away, and right now, I honestly don’t know if I can deal with that. I know that it’s all going to work out, but right at this moment, I’m ready to throw up my hands, let mold grow in the sink at regain the 45 pounds that I worked SO HARD to lose. Did I mention that I started my weight loss journey because he told me that we could start trying as soon as I got below 140?! Guess what? I did it, and we’re not. I feel broken. It’s like someone ripped the carpet out from underneath me and I can’t get back up to save myself from humiliation. On top of all this happening, I have to smile, be adorable and act like life is all hunky-dory when mom gets here. GREAT. I am lost on what to do, because I’ve honestly never felt like this before. I am someone who usually sees the good in all things, and right now, I’m just seeing black. I am hoping that by writing this I’ll find some type of peace with my situation, and I pray that hubs gets how hard this is for me. I know that everything will eventually get better, but right now I could REALLY use a good distraction…maybe I should sign up for a 1/2 marathon. The training would help me lose the last 10 pounds that I want gone, and it would force me to focus on something other than my current broken state.

**In response to comments recieved**

My husband and I agreed when we got married that his education comes first, especially since I would really like to be a stay at home mom to my children. At that time, he was getting his BA. He will graduate with his Master’s in December, and then will be applying to PhD programs. I am currently finishing up my BA in Legal Arts and will graduate in April of 2010. I want to take a break before going to law school to have babies and family. After he gets his PhD, it will be my turn to do what I want, but that’s at least 4 years away. He did say that we could start trying if he gets funded (which would include insurance)…I’m just not convinced right now. First we were going to start trying in February of this year, then he changed his mind. He told me not to refill my birth control after my last pack (he NOW explains that it was because he thought that he was going to get the job, and since he didn’t…). So I’m back to birth control again, but not happy about it. He made a comment about February again, but that would be contingent on him getting a job. I am afraid to look forward to anything at this point. I know that he loves me very much and does want children, but I think he’s terrified of not having insurance (which I do understand, but right now, my baby drive doesn’t care). Also, with him getting funded for a PhD, he would have a job with the university, and I would be free to find a job that I enjoy.

]]> http://breagettingfit.com/2009/06/04/broken-parts/feed/ 7 Total exhaustion http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/22/total-exhaustion/ http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/22/total-exhaustion/#comments Fri, 22 May 2009 21:34:57 +0000 breefawn http://breagettingfit.com/?p=534 thumbnailcac8qde5I am completely burned out. I am even too tired to EAT…yes, I actually don’t have the energy to lift food from my plate to my mouth. It’s sad, isn’t it. And I get to go home and cook dinner, do homework and clean house. Sounds like a party to me! I think that I probably should take some time for myself tonight…. I’m just trying to figure out HOW to do that. I can’t NOT do my homework…I’d fail. So I’m thinking that while dinner cooks, I will ask my hubby to help me out. I have The Happy Company Head Trip Therapeutic Massager and it’s AWESOME!! I think that it would help me to relax and chill out for just a little bit. I just hope that it doesn’t relax me SO much that I can’t get anything done!! If you’ve never tried one of the head massger thingys, they’re pretty cool!! I absolutely LOVE mine. I can’t wait to use it…now I just have to muster up the energy to get through the next 90 minutes….

]]> http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/22/total-exhaustion/feed/ 1 Puma bags http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/21/puma-fitness-shoulder-bag/ http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/21/puma-fitness-shoulder-bag/#comments Thu, 21 May 2009 21:18:59 +0000 breefawn http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/21/puma-fitness-shoulder-bag/ I am absolutely IN LOVE with PUMA Fitness Shoulder Bag! It’s nylon, ANIMAL-FRIENDLY and SUPER cute! AND it can hold a TON of stuff. I have my wallet, day planner, Diet for a New America, a water bottle (reusable, of course), my homework for 3(!!) classes, and other purse-y items (including a sewing kit! Better to be prepared than embarrassed!). Did I mention how CUTE this is? In fact, Puma makes a number of bags, ALL of the ones that I’ve looked at are animal-friendly. You should check them out:

]]> http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/21/puma-fitness-shoulder-bag/feed/ 1 Applying for scholarships http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/21/applying-for-scholarships/ http://breagettingfit.com/2009/05/21/applying-for-scholarships/#comments Thu, 21 May 2009 19:16:55 +0000 breefawn http://breagettingfit.com/?p=521 I realize that this is a departure from my usual blogging…so let me start out thumbnail5by explaining that I’m in my senior year (after taking a LOOOONG break after high school to figure out what I wanted to “do” with my life…I’m still not sure, if you’re wondering) of college, and my current dilema is scholarship applications. I know that there are TONS of unclaimed scholarships EVERY year, so I’m trying to tap into some of that money. That being said, writing all of the essays and filling out the applications is SUPER time consuming. I’m really hoping that it’s worth it. I have talked about my Total Money Makeover (Check out the book: The Total Money Makeover: A Proven Plan for Financial Fitness, it’s DEFINITELY worth the cover price!) before, and I’m putting the plan into action, but I’m IN SCHOOL. So I’m trying to find money to pay for school so that I won’t have to. Pretty cool, huh? I really didn’t know where to start looking for scholarships, afterall, I haven’t had to apply for them since I was in HIGH SCHOOL! In my search, I found two websites that are FREE and SUPER HELPFUL: Fastweb and ScholarshipExperts. They’re both worth a look, especially if you’re trying to get out of college without a huge loan. So good luck to me and my applications!! Here goes nothin’!

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